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I love to dance. I love listening to music. My daughter is my number one priority in life. During my 'me' time, I write, listen to music, and read...mostly self-help books [they're either hilariously funny or really informative]. I can't stand silence and am never in it if I don't have to be. I love the dark. In my free time I like reading, writing, introspecting, philosophizing and thinking about life. I like going out to do that things some consider 'out of the ordinary' and not so much the status quo. I am a natural over-analyzer [currently trying to grow out of it]. As scared as I am of love, it's the one emotion I wish I could feel ALL the time. I put on a tough exterior but I'm a softy at heart and those who know me well enough see RIGHT thru it... I absolutely hate to be perceived as weak. My biggest pet-peeve is people who beat around the bush for the sake of not hurting someone.

1.11.2010

ReneeISM

this is one out of the vault...


Why do I come off as a closed book?
Hiding behind walls of no emotion?
I will admit that I'm cautious...
But I think in efforts to not share too much,
I've forgotten how to share at all.
In an effort to guard my heart,
And all the emotions it encompasses,
I locked it up and threw away the key
And now I have no recollection
Of what deep ocean to which it's gone.
All I ever wanted was to not get hurt
And my wish has been granted.
Because now I can't even let myself go,
Enough to let n e one inside
Where they could possibly ever hurt me.
It surprises me when people say that I'm reserved
And that my innocence is a cover-up for something deeper.
But I now realize that they've all seen the truth
Because by keeping my emotions under lock and key
I've lost the ability to see myself and me...


ReneeISM

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